Last month, I posted a Youtube playlist of all the videos I managed to record for the first year of conceptualizing and organizing my life around music performance. You can really see the trail of breadcrumbs there, if you follow this blog and read this journal of mine, these thoughts I’ll put down each month. My birthday wishes, last year, were for music to bring me good fortune in all aspects of life. There is something about birthdays we don’t talk about much: The dissection of the feelings of love and fortune we get with every hug and wish for a happy birthday. This year, I’m also wishing for fame, it seems, at the subconscious level, as it surprised me with this phrase, so overused in our culture, to the point of being invasive and obnoxious: fame and fortune, when I sang Across the Border this past Thursday at the Common.
These days, fame is synonym of celebrity, the mainstream culture and industry’s cult of personality and the general public’s clamour for a feeling of intimacy with such inspiring people- to put in euphemistic terms. The pattern, however, has been recorded since Ancient Greece, and is simply our way to motivate a behaviour through positive reinforcement. On the community level, being recognized and encouraged for your work is delightful! Entertaining your friends is wonderful, bringing people together to maintain social connections that are so important to us, humans; we are social animals, with widely varying social needs. And we all have our value in the human ecosystem, even outside the mainstream culture and economy. I’m not aiming for celebrity, I am not an aspiring musician, I am not mainstream. I’m just committed to my art, welcoming what it will bring me, and wishing for love and fortune.
Here’s the video for the Out to Lunch spot this last Thursday, July 31st.